But with all that comes stress, burnout, writers block, feelings of doubt, imposter syndrome… you name it. I seem to put a lot of pressure on myself to constantly work, try as hard as I can, and conquer my dreams and ambitions. When I reach the end of my time here on this planet, I want to look back fondly at how hard I worked, what I accomplished, and what creative legacy I’ve left behind. This very website was a goal of mine throughout the last 2 years, and I worked hard to make come together. I’m also very stoked to have a blog section on my website, and for personal reasons. This blog area is designated to be my journal, my personal space where I can write how I’m feeling, or maybe share something neat that’s happening in my life. Or maybe my cat did something cute and I need to share it immediately. Maybe I’ll get excited about a new song and I want to share the backstory on it… or maybe I’m feeling a bit frustrated and need to vent. In fact, venting is EXACTLY what I want to do at this very moment! Here’s what’s going on in my life that is causing me frustration:
Last week, I won a remix contest for a record label I really admire. For the contest, contestants had more or less 2 weeks to make a remix for a song titled “Intentionally Lost.” I found out about the contest while I was traveling Isla Holbox in Mexico. I had just finished experiencing actually being lost on said island, so I felt inspired to create the remix. I worked on the project for a short time and saved it to a USB stick. I figured that if I were to win, I’d have a bit of time to polish it up, and that would happen when I returned to the States. Well, I did win. AMAZING RIGHT!? Well….not quite… the big idiot that I am, I misplaced the USB when I got home to Seattle…. With the only copy of the project on it. Ironic isn’t it? A remix for a song called intentionally lost….inspired by me getting literally lost …and the final project is in fact….lost as well. What do I do here? As I write this, I’m on day 3 of losing my mind trying to find the USB stick….I reached a point where I need to write my feelings out, and what better way than to make it my first blog….so here it is…blog #1… on my new website…. Venting on how big of a dumbass I am. Welcome!
-Anthony